Stressed, Depressed and Underdressed

I've been staring at this draft for about two days now and everyday when I come home I start to write and then erase it all. I want to be truthful and honest with you guys but I also want to be exciting or insightful and not boring. My life right now is less than satisfactory just because I feel like I have a lot going on. I can hardly keep up with myself.

My favorite thing to tell people when they ask how I'm doing is "My hair is a mess, just like my life".  I think that people have a certain expectation when it comes to me and that they think that I have my life figured out because I'm smart and I seem "organized". I'll be honest for a second or for a few paragraphs and let you know that I don't know what I'm doing with my life. School is stressful, work is stressful, and life is overall stressful. My biggest wish right now is to get a stop watch and pause everything around me so I can just try and get a few things done for a few hours. 

My whole life right now is based off of naps, I take a few naps throughout a 24 hour period so that I can be awake and semi alert while I'm at work, or doing homework, or attempting to be social. I think that since starting college I've learned the importance of naps and how even though I'm "growing up" I'm really just reverting back into myself at five years old.

I'm extremely indecisive. My major has come into major question the longer I pursue it. I like it some days and hate it other days. I don't want to waste too much of my college career learning about something I'll absolutely hate when I'm finished. I want to take a few fun classes over summer so I can really find myself and maybe tap into my creative side and see if I can figure myself out a little more.

It's pretty insane that this time last year I had to ask permission to use the bathroom but now I'm expected to have my life mostly figured out and in order. Sometimes being an adult isn't all its cracked up to be. The only cool thing is probably the fact that I can buy candy and slurpees at school, but that's a story for another day

If you're as stressed as I am then I suggest going to one of the buzz shacks around campus and ordering one of their hot chocolates. They're extremely delicious and a great study buddy. If you want to hear me whine and be ridiculous then you can read my last blog post here. Until next time!

XOXO

Ashley

P.S. These photos are throwbacks because it's Thursday and they represent times when my life wasn't stressful and filled with adult responsibilities.

iNeed my iPhone

Me and my phone, she will be missed

My life is probably over. I feel like such a loser for saying this and reacting this way but my life is on pause until Tuesday and it's killing me. Last night I actually went out with my friends and did things but unfortunately my phone and my hand were involved in a bit of a predicament. I accidentally somehow managed to close the car door on my hand and my phone. My phone is broken and my hand is just a little bruised and sore. BUT my phone is broken. 

Anyone who knows me knows that my phone is pretty much my whole life. I email, text, call, Instagram, tweet, snapchat and Facebook from my phone. I like to stay updated and in the now and it's killing me that  a little piece of me is missing. My replacement phone will be here on Tuesday but until then I'm using my moms old phone. It's one of those droids that were slightly cool in 2009 but right now they're just shitty and useless. I'm really stressed out because I have about 5 games on trivia crack that are going to expire and I dinosaurs on my Jurassic Park Builder that need to be fed. I'm sort of a nerd, don't judge me.

Another precious moment shared
 with my onesie and phone. RIP

Since I had an iPhone and my phone was connected to iMessage I am no longer getting any of my texts from people with iPhones. It's super inconvenient since most of my friends and family have iPhones. I know there's probably a way to fix it but I'm so annoyed by all of this and I'm too impatient to do it. 

I know Tuesday will be a good day because I'll get my phone again and the new episode of pretty little liars will be on. Thanks for reading my mini rant, and I know this isn't the end of the world and I will get over it but until then you can make me feel better and more happy by reading my last blog post here and telling all of your friends about me and my annoying life.

XOXO

Ashley

Mixing and Mingling

Showing love to old friends

As I've come farther into my life as a college student/adult I've lost touch with a lot of my friends whom I graduated with or the ones that are still in high school. It's very hard to find a middle ground with people you hardly see anymore. So I recently got together with some of my old friends and brought one of my new friends into the mix. It was a great way to bring my old life and new life together. 

Although there was the possibility that everyone could hate each other, I took the chance and everything worked out really well. Everyone got along well with our new comer and acted like they'd known her forever. I guess I'm just really lucky to have such cool friends, old and new. It was really great to bring my two lives together and make them one. I remember at the beginning of my college experience talking about how awkward I was and how it's hard for me to make friends and stuff but I've someone gotten the hang of it.

Some tips on making new friends without dropping the ones you've always loved is to find a balance. Don't overly hang out with one and neglect the other. It doesn't hurt to introduce them eventually because you guys could all grow to be really good friends. Tell your old friends about your new adventures without making them uncomfortable, don't make them feel left out of your new life and don't make them think you're having more fun without them. Include them in your adventures by asking them to go along or making plans to do this new thing together. FaceTime them so they don't forget how pretty you are. Your friends pick you solely off of your looks so keep that in mind, if they forget how gorgeous you are then they'll drop you.

My super cuter valentine

I know I always start out with decent advice and then I forget I'm supposed to be serious and helpful so sorry about that. Find a balance between your new life and your old life and good luck to everyone who has midterms coming up. Study hard and if you want to read my super serious tips from finals last semester you can read them here and if you want to read my last blog post you can read it here. Until next time! 

 

 XOXO

Ashley

Venturing Out

One of my guilty pleasures

The most important part of every colleges student's life is moving up and out of the nest. I may have done a little bit backwards since I'm just finally looking for a place of my own during the middle of my second semester of college. It's crazy to think that in a month I'll have to do my own dishes and my mom won't be there to force medicine down my throat when I'm sick.

Two of my little friends and I are out and about house hunting and are hopefully going to find a decent place close to work and school. I won't be able to shop all the time and get away with most of the things I've previously gotten away with. Like not paying all of my rent no matter how much my mom bothers me about it.

It's also going to be a new amount of freedom. I've always kind of done whatever I wanted anyway so not much in my life is going to change. BUtttt I don't have to tell my mom what time I'm coming home or when I'm not coming home at all. (I have a lot of sleepovers).

Proof I went outside

UPDATE

After two weeks of coughing and LOTS of sneezing I am no longer feeling super shitty and my face doesn't look zombie like and disgusting. I'm still taking lots of naps but they've thankfully been refreshing.

I also went outside today and that was cool except it was extremely hot. I like my days off because I can wear normal clothes and venture around and see the world outside of work. I don't have to smile and be nice to every single person I see.

My cats are doing wonderfully and are still cute as frick. You can read my latest blog post here where I talk about my favorite place on campus. Until next time!

XOXO

Ashley

P.S. I haven't been with the cats much this week but I did cuddle with this cute pooch who gave me lots of kisses.

All About My Food

There are so many chill places on campus, there's a great view from every building and cool people around every corner. One of my favorite places on campus is the cafeteria of course. There's a larger cafeteria on the East Side of campus. It's much more main stream and always over populated. It's really cool to hang there on cold days with a  cup of hot chocolate. I love food and eating is one of my top ten favorite hobbies. So when I want to chill and I want to also partake in my fave hobby I like to go to the West Campus Cafeteria. It's small and cozy and during the winter time they string up lights.

I like to sit at a table with my laptop and some good food and get lost in math equations for a few hours. One of my favorite places to brain storm blogs was under a little tree right outside the cafeteria when it was dark out. It's really nice because it's the type of place you can chill alone and your classmates will see you and join you for lunch or dinner. It's the perfect place to get lost in conversation, or thought, or in a good book.

There also tons of grassy areas outside the cafeteria, I like to lay there and sleep or lay and listen to music especially after I overeat chicken strips. 

Just a tip that buying a bag of chips, soda, and candy is more expensive than buying juice and a salad. Buttttt buying a pre made salad is the same price as chicken strips and fries. 

Just a side note that I was really sick and then I got miraculously better only to get sick once again a few days later. I've been working six days a week and going out with friends while also meeting my homework deadlines though. I am my own hero and I look up to myself. By the way here is me and Otto looking fresh to death the other day. You can read my latest blog post here and until next time!

XOXO

Ashley

Sick Daysss

Family time before I got sick

I've officially gotten my first cold of the semester, it was unexpected and not welcome. I want to skip work and sleep for a few days but I can't bring myself to do it. Being sick in college is far worse than being sick in high school. Missing one class is like missing three weeks. The things you missed will follow you throughout the semester and haunt you. I just want to lay in bed and cuddle with my cats right now but homework is in the way. I want a new technology that lets you do homework while you sleep because then I'd always get everything done on time and I won't be so grumpy all the time.

I hug my sister like I hug my cats

Even though being sick is sucky I still love being at school because I like watching the sunset over the ocean while doing inequalities. It's probably one of the coolest school experiences I've had so far. Anyone who isn't going to school at SBCC or some other cool beach school is honestly missing out on the view and the experience.

I've managed to stay on top of my homework and my bed has become my new office. Listening to lectures in your pajamas while chilling with your cats is probably the coolest part of online classes. I think next semester I'm going to stick to one or two online classes and spend more time on campus again. They're both fun so far so I think an even split between the two would be good.

I don't have much to say since I've been mostly working, sleeping, and doing homework. You can read my last blog post here and until next time!

XOXO

Ashley

Coming Back Strong

Best friends since Kindergarten,
now taking on college together

I wish I could describe to all of you how much I love and enjoy college. Coming back for my first day felt like I never left. I'm so comfortable here and it's crazy how 5 months ago my life was COMPLETELY different. I'm not so much a shy fry and I kind of have an idea of what I'm doing with my life.

Being back in class was great too, I was with my favorite math teacher (I had her last semester too). Dr. Monika Laskowski is funny and down to earth and she makes math fun somehow and she just knows how to make math easy. Although I can be great at math even a whiz like me gets confused every once in a while. Last semester my math class was chill, we all became really good friends quickly and formed a bond that was beyond anything I was expecting. I miss sitting with all my friends talking about nonsense and math with Monika. This semester my math class is filled with completely different kids. They're nice but they're all engineering and science majors like myself. It's just so crazy how one math class up is completely different.

Back on the homework grind in
in the library

This semester I didn't cower awkwardly in my seat and stare at everyone like they were big mean adults who were going to eat me. Instead I actually had conversations with them and let myself be out there. When literally anyone can go online and suddenly know everything about you it's a lot easier to be cool and confident in real life. You never know who's read your blog and just happens to know that you have a weird cat obsession. 

My legs were definitely sore from all the walking, and these hills are killing me buttttt the view is totally worth it. How many other people can watch the sunset over the ocean while learning math equations? I am definitely very lucky to be at SBCC and I'm grateful for all the opportunities I've been given. 

I just like holding him
like a baby

The homework is already killing me, but it's probably killing all of us right? You can read my first blog post of the semester here and until next time!

XOXO

Ashley